February 20th

The message today in the devotional meant a lot. I’ve been struggling. Day by day God continues to amaze me. Whatever is weighing heavily on my mind seems so much more instantly addressed than when I wasn’t in the right place with him. Hallelujah is the Lord Jesus Christ! He is perfect, my savoir, my redeemer. And I thank him so much for listening and giving me the answers. And now I know deep down even if a solution to one of my inner battles is not what I want, it’s what I NEED. If God wants it for me, so be it. He knows what he’s doing and I’m going to give that all to him. My entire life, fate, future, being.. lies in the palms of his hands, there for him to do anything he wants with it. And because of his abundant love for me, as long as I seek knowledge and security in him, he’ll provide. So, so lucky I am for him even being available to me when I don’t deserve it. But for some reason I am worthy. Amen.
What God was portraying through Sarah Young in todays devotional message is that in the depths and core of my soul, I have the opportunity to have everlasting knowing and peace through him. And nothing else will fill this void in my soul in such a manner. If peace is what I seek in my heart, my soul.. nothing else will do. I must seek to you, God. “You will not find lasting peace in the world around you, in circumstances, or human relationships.” God holds the only capability for it. I can only hope and pray to my savoir to be reminded of this when my own selfish and sinful tendencies lead what’s really important astray, yet again. Before I wasn’t occasionally led astray. It was more of a giant block from justness being in my life. Now in present time, since I have sought, experienced & found, all I have to do is remember the only real “fortune” of any importance is the Lord Jesus Christ and his father. I accept that. After all, he gave me life, his love, his everything, so my spirits life can persist on endlessly. Dear God, bring this message to me when I am running low on faith and in the hardest of trying times. And I’m truly sorry and ashamed it took me so long to see the light, to do what I needed to do. Be with my friends who may be lost so they can too feel your love and walk the “narrow path” with me. Work your miracles & amaze us all with what you are capable of (aka EVERYTHING!) for you have worked one on me and once again, while my worthiness falls short my thankfulness is high. Can’t wait to continue this beautiful journey with you, if I am such as lucky enough to open my eyes another day. And if I do, Hallelujah! For I know my God is with me. And will all of these things I ask of & tell you, AMEN.

Verses suggested to me by the devotional:
Colossians 3:16: “And let the pace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are called to live in peace. And always be thankful.”

Colossians 1:27: “Christ lives in you. This gives you assurance of sharing his glory.”

2/19/13

Dear God, today has been hard on me. The difference is the way I am handling it. Not until the very last second after I got home did I get to thinking. God, I know there should be nothing I’m worrying about or in distress of, so I am trying to withstand from that. I still need you, for every tear I have ever cried, every smile I have ever evoked, with every fiber of my being. Unworthy is my gratitude when I am sad over some things though I already possess so much. Help me to work on that. I want to be the best for you, my perfect savoir.

Today, reading in the 365 day devotional, “Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young, this is what I got from it:

God works in mysterious ways. I know he is speaking to me deeply tonight because right before I opened to read, I was thinking of my own selfish inner demons, when that’s just what todays devotional is about. I need not to give into this, because it puts my attention elsewhere when it should only be on God. The more personal issues I have, the more I should want to stray away from those and bond with Christ. With God, anything that you are dealing with cannot compete with the feeling of being within his grace. That feeling of intensity is unattainable elsewhere. 

Exodus 3:14: “God replied to Moses, “I am who I am.”“

Habakkuk 3:17-19: “Yet I will rejoice in the lord. I will be joyful in the God of my Salvation! The Sovereign Lord is my strength: He makes me as surefooted as a deer, able to tread upon the heights.”

February 18, 2012

The message I have received today is that God is ALWAYS with me, whether I feel like it or not. Through good, and bad. Dark and light, rise and fall. On too many occasions do I get down on myself & not consider the fact that my creator won’t forsake me in time of need. When things are weary, scary, uncertain.. love him even more, pray even harder. And let the same still hold true even when I am in the opposite situation. Jesus is my lifeline, my love, my everything, and I will give my all to you in this relationship.
Thank you God, for just being there. Your presence is enough. 

The 2 bible verses referred to were:

Zephaniah 3:17: “The Lord your God is with you, the mighty warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.”

Psalms 73:23-26: “Yet I still belong to you, you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but you? My health my fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart, he is mine forever.”